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Home

You know that sang, “Home is where the heart is”? I just learned first hand how true this is.

Garren and Jerry left Monday afternoon, hauling all our “stuff” to Manchester. They are making amazing time and will be there in about 3 hours.

Sybil pulling the trailer like a champ, and two (still enthusiastic) drivers ;)

Sybil pulling the trailer like a champ, and two (still enthusiastic) drivers ;)

Last night, as I was having another bout of pregnancy induced insomnia, I had the thought, “I want to go home.” I realized instantly that I was referring to New Hampshire. A place I have never been. Why? Well that is where my husband is. I literally associate my home with him. Garren is all I need to feel at home no matter where our life may take us. I feel so comforted and at peace with my life for this very reason. Our marriage isn’t perfect, we both make mistakes daily, but the foundation we base our life on is. Serving one another, other people around us, and most importantly God, has helped us see the bigger picture in life.  It’s opened my eyes to to the true meaning behind “home”.

As a child I moved. A. Lot. Four different states and far to many houses to count by the time I was 15 years old. I use to be so jealous of friends who had literally lived in the same house their whole life. I craved that stability and sense of who I am and where I come from. Now I know, no matter where I live, my home will be the same for the  decades of years to come. My home will forever be next to Garren. I realize this is getting sappy, and I am crying just thinking about this. (Pregnancy has made my already horrible crying “reflex” even worse)

In other less emotional news, the second trimester is already BY FAR better than the first. I am still lacking some energy but my nausea is much better. I still feel sick, especially if I go long without food. I am rarely throwing up any more though. This has been greatly appreciated. I will probably do another pregnancy post in a few weeks.

Garren starts Physical Therapy school on August 26th. I love seeing how excited he is. We are both so blessed to have the opportunity to follow our dreams. (I am ecstatic about being a stay at home mom) He is such a hard worker and I know he will excel at this new challenge in his life! While it’s easy to think about life after grad school; after school loans and late nights studying, I am excited for this new chapter in our lives and plan to make the most out of each and every day.

 

Three days until I go HOME. :)

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Finding Happiness

The past 5 months have been a complete roller coaster.

In that time we:

  • Found out we were expecting our first baby.
  • We lost our baby
  • we applied to grad school
  • We were denied or put on a lot of wait lists and realized we needed a plan B
  • My hours were cut at work
  • We devised a plan B and became excited about it
  • We found out Garren was accepted into Franklin Pierce’s DPT progam
  • My Grandpa died

It’s been really crazy and to be honest I thought I could never handle some of the trials that had been thrown at us. However we have made our way through it together and have learned so much in the process.

I am a planner. A crazy planner. I have to plan every detail of every event well before it’s going to take place. Clearly most of the things that have transpired in the last 5 months can’t be ‘planned for’. This is when I realized I have to relinquish my control. I don’t get to decide if Garren gets into grad school, I don’t get to decide if I will have the opportunity of caring my next baby to full term. All I get to decide is how I react to the life I lead. I can wallow in self misery and pity, or I can find happiness. I am so very blessed. I have a husband who would do anything for me, a family who loves and supports us, and a Father in Heaven who is so aware Me.

My grandma just lost the love of her life. She is the epitome of strength, virtue and happiness. She has been through so many hardships in her life, but upon meeting her you would never know. She literally glows. I pray one day to be a tenth of the woman she is. For now I will take the lessons of patience, forgiveness,  and submission to heart and challenge myself to let go of how I think my life should play out. The Lord knows what I am capable of, he knows the path my life will lead. I just need to hold on and make the most of it, cherishing all the good that is in store for us.

If nothing else, we get to wake up in the morning and decide, will this be a good day, or will I let it be a bad day. Happiness is a choice, some days it’s harder to make that decision, but it is there waiting for us to grasp it.

I am so excited for the next chapter in our lives. I am so proud of my husband for his hard work and determination. He is going to make an amazing Physical Therapist.

New Hampshire here we come :)

The day we found out he got into Franklin Pierce!

The day we found out he got into Franklin Pierce!

 

P.S. We got to go visit Garren’s brother/sister in law and our nieces and nephews in Montana a few weeks ago. It was so fun! WE WILL live in Montana one day.

SO EXCITED AND READY FOR CONFERENCE THIS WEEKEND.

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Valentine’s Day

Yesterday was our very first Valentine’s Day as a married couple. It’s nice to know Valentine’s Day will never be lonely or miserable again! I made Garren breakfast (homemade chocolate pancakes, strawberry syrup and bacon) and The ABC’s of Our Love book. (As seen on pintrest :P) He loved it. He got me a new memory card for my camera and a yoga dvd I have been wanting! He had to go to school so I spent that time getting ready for our date. Then he took me to see The Vow.

Ok so the love story is beautiful and heart breaking. (SPOILER ALERT) I have this problem that while watching movies; they become my reality. I attempt to empathize and put myself into the situation, so basically I was a wreck during this movie. I do know that I would much rather be the one forgetting that to be the one forgotten. I get that either side had no control of their situation, but I just couldn’t handle it if Garren didn’t remember me, falling in love with me, or the life we have together. Nothing was more heart breaking then watching Leo sign those divorce papers. Ouch. The ending was only saved (in my opinion) by the fact that it was based loosely on a real story. She never regains her memory but they do fall in love with each other all over again and get married and have two children. It seemed the movie ended a bit abruptly though.

I love that they end up falling back in love and getting remarried. I don’t believe in soul mates, but I think that’s about as close as you can get :) Ok this wasn’t meant to turn into a movie review.

After the movie we went to The Little Brick House for dinner (YUM!) and then to the Globe Trotters! We had so much fun. I love being married to my best friend. We have so much fun together.

Here are some pictures for your view pleasure

During half time of the Globe Trotters "Game"

 

This is what Garren looks like when he sings. He will kill me for putting this up!

Its ok Babe! See I am weird too...

He loves me lots :)

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Happiness

Our very first apartment was tiny. I’m talking two people couldn’t fit in the kitchen, “you call this a living room?” Tiny. Our couch not only wouldn’t have fit in the living room, but it also didn’t fit through the door. At this time I was also in a very frustrating job, hardley getting any hours. Garren wasn’t getting very many hours either so we were both a little stressed about it. Well now that I look back on it I have realized how blessed that time in our lives was because:
  • We only had our love seat, so any time we watched a movie we HAD to be cuddling :)
  • Our lives are now crazy busy, there are some days when the only time we are home together is when we are sleeping. Last summer, because of our frustrating job situations we got to spend TONS of time together.
  • We didn’t have the internet, there for we wasted less quality time.
  • We didn’t live in the greatest area of Cedar so we spent a lot of time outside and with family.
  • Our bedroom was the largest room in the apartment…. so we spent a lot of time in there ;) Yeah I just said that.

I remember constantly thinking it will be so much better once we have a bigger apartment, and don’t get me wrong I LOVE our current apartment, but its taught me that you have to find the postivies of NOW. I am a serial offender of planning how awesome my life WILL be in the future, and not noticing how amazing it is now. So GOAL: Notice the great all around you. I, personally, have a wonderful life.

NOTE: Planning isn’t always a bad thing. You have to have goals, but you can’t keep yourself waiting. If your waiting to be happy, you will always find a reason not to be. You will always find some thing else you have to wait for. Embrace life, and remeber happiness is a choice :)