Baby Red: 19 and 20 Weeks


this is in between 19 and 20 so I will just count it as both ;)

Thoughts: I can’t believe I am half way through my pregnancy! I would say it flew by but honestly it was a VERY long 20 weeks. I think the whole puking my guts out for 14 weeks, moving across the country and settling in had something to do with that. I am excited to work on the nursery!

Dr. Appointments: I had my anatomy scan on Thursday and then talked to the doctor afterwards. Turns out I have partial placenta previa (this is when part of the placenta is covering the cervix) so I will need another ultrasound at 28 weeks to see if my placenta has moved up. She said that in most cases of partial placenta previa it will move up. If it doesn’t it’s an automatic ticket to have a C-section at 35-36 weeks because you can’t risk going into labor on your on. I am trying not to think about this because it would be slightly devastating and scary for me. I have wanted a natural birth almost as long as I have wanted a baby. Is that weird? Any way I feel really confident that it will move so I am not dwelling on it.  In the end all I want is a healthy baby and I will put that in the Lord’s hands.

Baby: Thursday we found out Baby Red is a girl! We are so thrilled. Not going to lie, a boy definitely would have been cheaper. I am going crazy with all of the cute girl stuff out there. I have her entire nursery planned and drawn out. I have many crafts to complete over the next 20 weeks! During her anatomy scan they measured her head, looked at her heart, spine, stomach, kidneys and all of her limbs. She is literally perfect. She was wiggling around so much that it took a while to get a certain picture that shows all 4 chambers of her heart. I was afraid that there was actually something wrong and they just couldn’t tell me, but after the ultrasound the doctor assured me she is perfect.

Weight: I weighed the exact same as I had at my previous doctor’s appointments… so yeah….

Symptoms: My headaches are almost a daily occurrence now. Not my favorite but better than throwing up. I only throw up if I eat chocolate. I don’t understand this. Apparently my daughter has missed the memo that chocolate cures 95% of women’s problems. I already have so much to teach her ;) My lower back has been hurting a lot lately and recently I realized that pulling myself up with my abdominal muscles feels weird. It doesn’t hurt or anything it’s just a strange feeling. Does that make sense?  Other than that I am feeling pretty great!

Movement: During the ultrasound Baby Red was moving around a lot and I could feel all of her little movements. I think this experience helped me realize I am in fact feeling the baby every time I feel those little thumps and rolls. Last night night as I was falling asleep she started moving up a storm. It was actually making me a little nauseous but I smiled the whole time. It is such a surreal thing to feel and know that is my daughter moving around in there. I cry just thinking about how much we love her! Ok since I wrote this we have a slightly new development. She has been moving around like crazy tonight so I had my hand where I was feeling the movement and felt her kick my hand!! So Garren of course ran over and put his hand there, and guess what!? She completely stopped moving. Stubborn little girl. He went back to his studying and she proceeded to dance around my belly. I think she is just waiting for her daddy to kill his test tomorrow and then she will let him feel her kicking away ;)

Cravings/Aversions/Eating: This hasn’t changed either. I still want Chic-Fil-A every day and I am drinking way more milk than I ever thought possible. Recently I have been eating a lot of mac n cheese. I am not sure if it’s because I want it or if it’s because it’s here and easy to make. Grapes are still high on the food list as well. I’m really not all that picky so I suppose that is a good thing!

Sleep: This is a sore subject. I don’t get more than 2 hours of sleep at a time because I wake up so often to use the bathroom. However I sleep pretty hard when I am asleep. I will fall asleep and wake up in the exact same position clutching my body pillow. My shoulders get sore so I go to the bathroom and switch sides a lot.

Workouts: Garren and I participated in a 5k on Saturday. It was more of a hike than a run. Garren ran it and actually took 3rd place. I walked with some of my friends and boy am I feeling it now. It’s honestly quite pathetic! My calves and shins and back all feel like some one mutilated those muscles. Guess I need to work out more.

Random: Garren and I love talking to our little girl. It’s so fun to call her by her name. I honestly don’t think we will be able to keep her name to ourselves until she is born. I already have to catch myself from saying it. Plus out of excitement I have told people out here. I am not good with happy secrets/surprises. I just want every one to share the joy with us! Maybe we will announce during the next pregnancy update!


Baby Red: Gender Reveal

Today we (FINALLY) found out our precious baby’s gender. For fun I went through all of the different “old wives tales” to see if there was any truth to them. Considering they came out to a 50/50 chance, they weren’t much help.

Chinese Gender Chart: Boy

Mayan Gender Theory: Boy

Bump High/Low: Girl

Bump Wide/Narrow-: Girl

Ring Test: Boy

Hair: Girl

Acne: Boy

Heartbeat: Girl

Cravings: Boy

Sleep Position: Girl

Graceful/Clumsy: Boy

Stress Test: Boy

Dream (opposite of dreams theory): Girl

Between our families Boy pulled out a little bit above girl but it was fairly even… Any way might as well get to the announcement!



A GIRL! We are so in love! I honestly can’t believe how much more real this feels! Seeing her wiggle around was beautiful.  We do have a name for her but we aren’t sure we will share that before she is born! We shall see :) So weird, from the very beginning I have thought this baby would be a boy, but when I laid down on the table I knew they were going to tell me she was girl. SO NUTS. So there goes my ‘mother’s intuition’. The funniest part is my phone died as we were leaving the clinic so we couldn’t call and tell any one! Then we get home and I had left the handset off the receiver and the house phone was in-turn dead as well. What are the chances?

Any way isn’t she gorgeous?!

IMG_20130919_172937 IMG_20130919_172907 IMG_20130919_172859How am I going to wait 20 more weeks to meet this cute girl? Hopefully the second half is faster than the first half!


Baby Red: 17 and 18 Weeks


Thoughts: It’s funny because when I first got the positive pregnancy test, I would day dream about making it to 18 weeks. For some reason 18 just sounds significant. Plus I am a mere two weeks from being half way to meeting our precious baby! The very thought gives me goosebumps and butterflies all at once :) I was incredibly nervous during the beginning of week 17. It was right before my first appointment out here and I still get a bit of anxiety prior to those visits.

Dr. Appointments: I had an appointment on Wednesday September 4th. I met with the nurse practitioner. My blood pressure was perfect, like always. She was amazing. She sat there and listened to all my questions and concerns. I never once felt rushed. Then she taught me how to find which side of my uterus my baby is on. This was the first time they have been able to find the heart beat with the Doppler because of my tilted uterus. Luckily it has completely rectified it’s self. The baby was sleeping with a heart rate of 138 bpm.  Since I just transferred my care to this new clinic they want to play “catch up” on my doctor visits. Today I had an appointment with my actual doctor (she was referred to me by a woman in my church). I love how energetic she is. I got to hear the baby’s heart beat again. So crazy how much baby moves around. He/she was much lower this time. 

Baby: Baby Red is now almost 6 inches long and weighs almost 7 oz. I love reading each week how much our little baby is growing. His/her bones are hardening, and some of the first bones to develop are the ones in the inner ear. Baby can officially hear things like my heart beating. Sounds poetic doesn’t it?

Weight: I had gained about 5 pounds, of the 14 I lost back but today I found out I lost 2 pounds since my appointment last week. I honestly don’t even know how I lost weight because I am fairly certain I eat everything in sight.

Symptoms: While my morning sickness is no where near “back” if I eat too much sugar I get really sick. I guess that is a perfect reason to continue to eat healthy! I have been getting a lot more migraines recently and also some back pain. The worst symptom by far is the frequent urination. Some nights I can get up to use the restroom as many as 15 times. It’s insane! I would try and limit my liquid intake, but if I am thirsty I know it’s important to drink. I suppose this is getting me ready for waking up to feed Baby Red when he/she comes.

Movement: I have officially felt the baby move! It’s still very light and sometimes it’s hard to distinguish what I am actually feeling. Garren wont be able to feel the movements until they are stronger but the doctor said that should be with in the next few weeks! I love that simple reminder that our baby is healthy and strong. Last night the movements were much stronger!

Cravings/Aversion/Eating: I am still craving chic-fil-a sandwiches. My wonderful husband took me on a date 40 minutes away just to get chic-fil-a. Then he took it a step farther and looked up a copycat recipe and has since made it for me twice. Honestly it’s a VERY close match and is completely delicious. I am still downing more milk a week than I did my entire childhood.  I can’t eat sweets or chocolate on a regular basis at all, so they have to remain a “special occasions only” treat.

Sleep: I have already discussed this in symptoms, and while it sounds like I am not getting much sleep I do manage to get 7-8 hours even with all of the interruptions. The only real issue is by the time 6:00 pm rolls around my eyes are heavy and I am ready for bed. I think I may need to try and get up earlier and then take a nap during the afternoon to make the evenings more enjoyable.

Workouts: I have been looking at some of the recommended exercises for pregnancy and trying them. My energy is pretty low but I am still doing yoga and lunges and squats to try and make labor less painful.

Random: In EIGHT days we get the ultrasound to tell us what the gender of our baby is! I can’t even begin to tell you how excited I am to know something more about Baby Red. Also I will love being able to use the same pronoun when referring to him/her. I still think baby is a boy, but I am not sure if that’s intuition or hoping the naming process wont be even harder!


Hampton Beach Seafood Festival

Garren and I have been looking forward to this! We got to go to the beach, eat amazing seafood,and be thoroughly entertained. We got there as it opened, which proved to be a genius idea. There was a ton of people there, but we got a good parking spot. They had free charter buses to the actual festival. They were school buses! We haven’t ridden a school bus since high school. I don’t remember the seats being quite as close together as they were. We ate fried clams, bacon wrapped sea scallops and amazing lobster rolls.


At one point we sat and listened to this band play. It was a lot not so much singing as it was yelling, but there were a ton of people (mostly older) that were dancing in front of the stage. I wish we had filmed them. They looked like they were having so much fun and kept us entertained. We didn’t end up buying any souvenirs which is good for our wallet; I just couldn’t find anything I HAD to have. Had we known Baby Red’s gender that probably would have been a different story ;)


18 week bump!


New England Beach! The water was freezing. Excuse Garren holding my purse, he was being a gentleman.


Sand prints!


I love the beach!


On a school bus together again! Last time was either for an FCCLA trip or a Prostart trip in High School.


The stage before the band started playing and the place got packed


Lobster Rolls!



Dear Journal

(Side note: When I wrote the title of this blog I maybe started singing Brittney Spear’s song “Dear Diary” in my head. What?)


There are 2 missing from this picture. :)

There are 2 missing from this picture. :)

I have been an avid journal writer since I was 8 years old. Today, out of pure boredom, I started to look through my old journals. Now I know it sounds cliche to say I have wanted to be a mother my entire life, but honestly it’s what my day dreams consisted of even at the age of eight. My husband is already going crazy with the lists of baby names I have all over the house. (We thought we had the names chosen… not even close. It’s such a huge deal naming a child!) What he didn’t realize is I have pages in many journals filled with baby names. This obsession isn’t new, I just actually have a baby to name so it’s more real :) The very first list I could find was from a journal I wrote in when I was 9 years old. The names were:













For some reason I just find this so funny. Interestingly enough, the name Benjamin is literally on every single name list I have ever made (including the current one) The rest of the names on the list…. well they are not on current lists. Dasha? Is that even a name? 8 year old me is very creative ;)

Any way, as I was reading my journals I got butterflies. My dream is literally coming true. Last week I got to feel my baby move for the first time and it was by far the most amazing thing I have ever felt. Right now I am preparing for my “career”. In 5 short months I will start the hardest, longest and most rewarding job I will ever have here on earth. I will be a mother. The thought literally makes me giddy.

Some day my children will get to read my journals, and the blog posts I have turned into books. I wish I had journals from my mom or my grandma, to see how they became the people they are today. My journals aren’t earth shattering , in all honesty I even got bored reading some entries, but seeing how far I have come is amazing. I feel so blessed to have been able to write about the people I have written about. To share the experiences I had in high school, college, New York, Africa and everything in between. I am glad I wrote about my broken hearts and my silly day dreams. It may not be a best selling novel but it’s my history and I love it.

So there you go. A random post about journals and baby names. Any baby name suggestions for me? Seriously I need all of the help I can get. I don’t know how we will ever decide on a name for this baby. We are almost half way to meeting  Baby Red with no concrete prospects. HELP! :)